So as most of us MS'ers know each every one of our disease processes are different, and why it's more often that not coined the "snowflake disease" because each and every presence of MS is different. Well my "different" is my memory loss.
According to my neurologist the reason for my memory loss is there is a part of my nerve that is affected in the gray matter in my brain, causing memory lapses, or in my case just downright crazy Kierston. I literally forget where I am, most people that I will come in contact with, I will have no idea who they are.
If I ever wanted to forget a situation, this would be the most ideal situation, but right now I don't have too many things I wish to forget.
Let's throw out a few examples:
We went water walking, and I went to go get changed and came out, everything was fine. Although neither me or my significant other was prepared for what came next.
I lost my memory
Now, for most MS'ers it's usually just a fog. Maybe like you might forget simple details, but for me it's like that event never happened. Questions I am sure I asked Eric:
1.Why am I here?
2. Why am in a pool?
3. Why am I wet?
4. Who are these people around us?
Yep, this was the least of his worries. I put my stuff in a locker, and I didn't know where my locker would be with all of my belongings in it. I am in a room with a few hundred lockers and I put my stuff in one, with no identifier. Great. Well, apparently there was a nice lady that helped me find my stuff. All I can remember is I told her I had a white fluffy jacket. Thank GOD she was smart enough and nice enough, hell patient enough to help me in finding my things. Here I am, this distraught 24 year old woman, crying in the bathroom in a wet bathing suit. I bet most people would just walk away, but I wish I knew who she was so I could thank her. Now, you would think this would be the end of my memory loss escapades. Nope, nada. niet. I still needed to take a shower. This part will be short, because I don't remember anything about this occurrence. Basically I must've fell because now my hip hurts, and if I go to the doctor he is going to ask how it happened, and I am going to be like, yeah don't ask me that because I have no idea. Can you fix me? That should go over well.
Well, this is one of the many things going on with me. Fellow MS'ers what about you? Any strange and telling symptoms you have and you feel like your alone? Place in the comments section and tell me all about it.
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